THE INFIDEL

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"I am an unfaithful person.  

I would like to find the words I had put aside to tell you that. And here are a few coming back to me.  

I wanted to tell you what I believe is that you always have to keep yourself ... A place, a kind of personal place, that's it, to be alone and to love.  

To love you don't know what, or who, how, or for how long. To love, all the words suddenly come back to me ...  

To keep in oneself the place of an expectation, one never knows, of the expectation of a love, of a love without yet anyone perhaps, but of that and only of that, of love.

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I wanted to tell you that you were this expectation ”

 

Emily L / Marguerite Duras.